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Wednesday, July 24th, 2013
3:18 pm - R.I P Uncle David
A few weeks ago, when I was speaking to my family, I was told my Uncle David had been rushed to hospital with heart failure, and had been drained of 12 litres of fluid that had accumulated. He was given 3 months to several years, depending on how well he responded to treatment.

He passed away this morning, months before anyone expected.

My father now has no brothers left, and his only sister lives very far away, and they have never exactly been close anyway. I really feel for him.

My favourite memory of my Uncle is the lollipop he gave me when I was little which I swear was the size of my face! Got to smile at that one.

Sadly, this means my Aunt will now most likely go into residential care, although in a way, I think that will be good for her too.

In other news, the specialist thinks the eye ulcer is mostly healed, and has given Kelly dog different goo for her eye. In 10 days, if there is no improvement, then the next step would be surgery, but he is very optimistic that it won't be needed. Fingers crossed.

current mood: drained

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Monday, July 22nd, 2013
8:32 pm - Specialist referral
My poor little dog has an eye ulcer. Over the last month, it has failed to respond to the treatments, although she has been remarkably well behaved and tolerant of having drops in her eye. So, back to the vet today, who has said this is an Indolent Ulcer, and she will need surgery to fix it.

Which means, I had to get a referral to a veterinary opthamology specialist. So tomorrow, I find out how much this is going to cost. Since I have now been unemployed for 10 months, with no governmental financial assistance, no matter how much it costs, will be too much. At the same time, she is my dog, and no matter what, I'll find the money.

After my last dog having to have a complete knee reconstruction surgery, you think I'd learn to get pet health insurance. >

current mood: worried

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Wednesday, June 12th, 2013
1:32 pm - Pheno Great!
Just got back from the most awesome role-playing con of the year, Pheno. It's the highlight of the role-playing calendar, for sure!

This year was the con's 21st anniversary, and the trophys were beer mugs, which is brilliant! I really hope that the idea of a usable item as trophy catches on all over and continues, because storing or displaying trophies can get a little problematic after a few years of attending cons. This gets doubled when you and your significant other have the same hobbies. Darling husband won 3 trophies this year, while I won 2 and a certificate.

Maybe I should suggest spoons for next year? :D

I also came back from con with a new inkle loom, and once I get some more pegs for it, am certain it will let me do longer strips of trim than than the other looms I have. Darling husband was a little concerned until I reminded him that I had warned him the chances of another loom was high, at which point he admitted I had and accepted that weaving as a hobby takes up space.

Given that I have never lived in Canberra, I wonder why going to Pheno makes me home-sick for living there?

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Monday, November 26th, 2012
3:27 pm - From the container mall
Sitting on the corner of Cashel and Colombo, grey overcast day, watching a crane cut pieces out of a building half a block away. I'm amazed at how dead and empty it feels here. Greymouth would have more traffic and people than this on a monday! Just wow. In the bad way.

On the other hand, Kutwell Fabrics is still there, still awesome. And Laslo is out of retirement and back in store! Hehehehehe. Love that guy.

Was however, very sad to walk down Moorhouse Ave and see the giant pile of rubble that was the old train station / cinema complex. Don't think I feel homesick right now.

current mood: contemplative

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Sunday, October 28th, 2012
6:06 pm - Early summer is awesome!
The start of summer is a wonderful time. Hot enough to swim, not hot enough to be unable to move. I've introduced the new housemate and a mutual friend to the place I used to take Lu Dog swimming. It's so beautiful there. I miss Lu Dog everytime, and wish the little Kelly dog liked the water.

It's funny that everytime we go, plans are made for the next trip which get more grand and complicated, such as "We should totally have a bbq here, and bring all our friends!" It's good to be making new happy memories there.

So far, I've failed the acheive one thing a day goal once, so that's pretty good. Especially when I remind myself that most days, I do more than just the one major goal anyway. Even if it's only getting the dishes done, or drowning snails.

The drowning snails is working really well. I went round the garden today, and only mamahed to find about 20 snails all up, and some of those were in really hard to reach places. I had to use the broom to know 5 of them off the guttering, as an example. I think the gutter may have snails in it, but since I get vertigo trying to climb any thing at all, I'm going to have to leave that for someone else.

The husband and I finally got the trellis attached to the brick wall today. Having bought new masonry drill bits, what had taken half an hour to do previously, only took moments. The old masonry drill bit was total rubbish! I can now plant some climbing beans, although I do need to dig some manure through first.

So, going to go do some weeding and gardening, and then plant beans, hehehehe!

current mood: cheerful

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Tuesday, October 23rd, 2012
2:44 pm - 12 today, 1 rejection letter
I lost count of how many job applications I sent off today. It's at least 12, becuase I have 12 automated application receipt emails.

Oh, and one rejection form letter from one last week.

Job hunting and I don't mix. It inspires terror and anxiety in me. To counter-act the awfulness, I am living on the "achieve one thing a day rule".

Today's goal is to restring the broken tent poles that I got the parts for yesterday. Progress so far nil, but I have done some dishes, drowned a lot of snails, had tea with my neighbour, tidied the lounge (a bit, not enough) and am about to eat lunch.

And it's a beautiful sunny day that is not too hot, so I may walk the dog soon too.

You know what? Apart from the lack of money, I enjoy being unemployed.

current mood: accomplished

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Monday, October 15th, 2012
6:02 pm - 2nd time in 3 years
Got made redundant today.

No more handling customer complaints.

O noes, whatever shall I do? :D hehehehehehehehehe

Tomorrow, I sleep in.
Wednesday, father in law is coming down to do me a huge favour and install new lights.
Thursday, the job hunting begins.

And through all this, I have my fingers crossed for a good friend, who was taken to hospital with a suspected heart attack.

Perpective, huh?

current mood: confused

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Sunday, May 6th, 2012
10:15 pm - No more denial
Ok, so yesterday confirmed it. Altough irritatingly, a meal combination I had last week without a blood sugar spike was able to put me over the normal range yesterday.

Weekends are really hard to stick to the "healthy eating plan" because I don't have a routine to stick to. So, blew it today big time as well. And going out? Forget it. Cocktail food and party food is now the enemy, as you have no idea how much you've eaten, it's almost always high fat, high carbohydrate, low vege content, easy to lose track of bite size things.

Would be nice if the healthy foods, the ones that don't affect bgl's like strawberrys, were cheap, but man are they expensive.

One of the reasons I eat more carbohydrates than I should is because carbohydrate rich foods are cheap and store easily without refrigeration, so I can keep a supply in my drawers at work.

I am seriously tempted to pick up a smallish fridge just for work, but could I convince my boss to let me do so, where would I put it and how would I stop others in the office from using it? Plus, couldn't really afford that right now anyway.

And I'm having to give up eating as much fruit as I like. Seriously, 100 grams of grapes equals one exchange? Bull-shit!

I am so bored with myself right now and would like to do something else please.

current mood: aggravated

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Sunday, April 29th, 2012
10:07 am - Denial. It's so Easy!
So, I find myself doubting the doctors diagnosis. And trying to talk myself into not doubting it. Since doubting means less motivation to stick to the "Healthy Eating Guidlines". (pah)

Using the Blood Glucose meter, so far I've had one and only one reading over the normal level, and three hypos! Which is really telling me I need to eat more in the afternoon.

Plus the one reading I had over the normal level was after eating a large caramel sundae with extra caramel, which is not exactly a thing that's had very often.

I find myself oddly tempted to deliberately play up and eat all the yummy things just to test it. Stupid self defeating brain.

current mood: blah

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Friday, April 20th, 2012
7:51 pm - It was bound to happen.
Well, given my history, my family history, etc etc ad nauseum, it was inevitable that I would develop type 2 diabetes sooner or later.

The severe vitamin D deficiency was a surprise, but at least it explains the aches, the severe exhaustion, the dizziness and the very down moods.

Today was the first three hour group session at the hospital. It was a very basic introduction to what diabetes is, why it's a good idea to actually take care with your blood sugar levels, and getting a lot of paperwork sorted.

I was the only insulin resistant diabetic with hyperinsulinism in the room. I had a peverse kind of fun being the only one who could understand what that is (apart from my darling husband who was with me for moral support). It is very weird being a diabetic and producing 5x the normal levels of insulin though.

I honestly thought the insulin production would drop first, but apparently, as I get older, the insulin my body produces gets less and less effective. According to the speciaist, this means that if I live a normal length life, I am very likely to shift from type 2 diabetes to type 1, and have to be insulin injecting.

So far, the changes I need to make to my habits is to get more excersize, eat breakfast, have smaller meals and snack in between meals, and before bed. I was also given a slightly modified guide as to what I should eat than the othere there, and told I should have a higher protein intake because of the hyperinsulinism, to try and move my body away from getting its energy from carbohydrates.

Really, so far the changes don't seem that bad, as the types of food are what I eat mostly anyway. It's just going to be hard to be organised enough to have 6 meals/snacks a day.

There is one thing that irriates me, which is that I have to advise the traffic authority, which will affect how and how often I have to renew my drivers licenses. Bah! I am no more likely to have hypoglycaemic episodes today than I was prior to diagnosis, and if I stick to the meal plan, and even less likely! How irksome.

Oh well.

current mood: grumpy

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Tuesday, January 31st, 2012
9:38 am - Free to good home
Does anyone want a Dryer, and can collect it in Sydney?

If so, give me a call.

current mood: working

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Monday, January 17th, 2011
8:57 am - Happy New Complicated Year.
I really hope this year is not as bi-polar as it's started out to be. We could play "good news bad news" for quite a while I think.

So, being the kind of person who always chooses bad news first....

They've finally made the announcement that there will be no recovery of the missing miners in Pike River. I've been expecting this. The reports of the temperature readings they've been getting and the prolonged length of time the mine's been on fire will have been a very effective crematorium. Doesn't make it easier of course.

I was chatting on the phone to someone from QLD, which has been having those terrible and awe inspiring floods when they started talking about how so many of the missing will probably never be found and I started crying because of Pike River. If I was a stronger person, I'd take comfort from at least knowing, while the missing in the floods cannot be officially declared dead.

So, some of the positive things so far this year. The wedding was lovely! I got to meet the groom a few days before it and he seems like a great guy, lots of fun, and loves her to bits, so he'll do.

I got to do floristry for the first time, making the button holes, corsages and bouquets for the wedding. I was very pleased with how they all came out. I could have lived without the sunburn from having to stand out in the midday sun for almost two hours getting photos taken, but that's a small price.

Seeing my family counts as both a good thing and a bad thing. I love them to bits, but I miss them as well. And get frustrated by them too. So, the definition of family I guess.

Getting to drive around where I grew up was also a good thing and a bad thing. I visited the tiny little town I grew up in, and the house I lived in is for sale. It seems so much smaller than I remember, and they've changed so many things. The old laundry building is gone, they cut down all the fruit trees, (morons!) and they've levelled the paddock beside the house which used to have a huge cutting through the middle of it where the original railway line once was.

I met a lot of the locals when I had lunch at the pub, and I'm thinking living there as an adult would be a very different experience than living there as a child. Not really enough to make me want to go back there though, given that would be grounds for divorce as fas as my wonderful husband is concerned!

Catching up with people has made me miss them terribly, but it was so good to catch up too. So much gossip! Well, time to go get some practical things done.

current mood: contemplative

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Wednesday, November 24th, 2010
6:12 pm - My condolences
My heart felt condolences to everyone involved in or with the Pike River mine.

While I'm sad, personally, I've been very lucky. I went to school with two of the miners, lived in the same towns as many of them, but was not personally close to them. My neice is very broken up though. Her best friends father was one of the ones killed, and my neice is completely at a loss for how to cope, or what she should do.

This is likely to be what it's like for most of the people I grew up with right now. Even if we weren't personally close to one of the miners, we all know people who were. It's a small community, so that will be almost everyone.

I wish there was something I could do to help them, but I know I can't. Hopefully it helps knowing that the wish is there, even if it's only a very little.

One of my brothers recently applied to work at Pike River, and while I feel bad for him that that opportunity for work is no longer there, I am so much more grateful for the timing that means he wasn't among the miners. He's also not the only one I know who was looking for work there.

It's going to be months before any sort of normality exerts itself back home. Strangely, I've found myself thinking about the town I grew up in, Stillwater.

Stillwater's only real claim to fame is the fact that it is the site of the mass grave from the 1896 Brunner Mine disaster that killed 65. The grave was right next door to the school and from time we kids would all go over to clean it up.

The school has been closed a long time now. I wonder, who takes care of the grave site now?

current mood: sad

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Saturday, September 18th, 2010
3:43 pm - Perks of the job!
So, bonus of working in Ticketing is the occasional free ticket, or cheap ticket to shows.

I got to see Jersey Boys on Tuesday, and it is wonderful! I do recommend it. I love how they let the titles and lyrics of the songs tell a lot of the story, and they don't gloss over the dark bits, but do manage to tell them with humour and grace. The session I saw was with the under studies, and if that's the quality of singing and acting, the main cast must be mind-blowing!

Tonight I'm going to see Metallica in concert. Squeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

I was lucky to be in the right place at the right time to get tickets for $50 each. At regular prices, I could NOT have managed to afford it.

In other news, Kelly seems to have reached a plateau in her adaptation. She and the cats are still not friends, but Lilly has returned to sleeping on the bed, and will now his at Kelly. Kelly still gets over excited and barks when Keira and Lilly are fighting, and is still intensely fascinated by them, but it's better.

current mood: excited

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Sunday, September 12th, 2010
9:55 pm - Happy two years of marriage!
So, today was Glissom and my second wedding anniversary. :)

We started by rolling over yesterday morning, and asking each other how long we'd been married. Neither of us could remember if it had been two or three years. We had to start the day with maths to work it out.

Today was the party to celebrate the first anniversary of there being a Hannah, so we started the day by hanging out in the park with friends for a picnic lunch, then went to see the movie "Despicable Me", and finished the day by taking Kelly for a walk.

Highly cute movie, very funny moments, and I adore the minions! I want a horde of minions just like them. So happy in their jobs, so willing to please.

Apart from that, Glissom is a wonderful husband, very supportive, tolerant, kind and generous. He makes the world a better place and he makes the world make more sense and makes things easier to deal with.

And he's mine! :)

current mood: contemplative

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Saturday, August 21st, 2010
10:56 am - Adaptation issues.
So, Kelly has some quirks that don't sit well, with me or Glissom, sadly.

She doesn't come when we call her, which makes taking her anywhere a not gonna happen thing, but hopefully that can be cured.

She has a tendency to bolt if she gets out the front door without a leash on, I cannot chase her, and that is a health hazard for Kelly as she also has no road sense. Luckily, the active young guy currently living on our couch can run very fast, and has managed to catch her both times this has happened so far. But one day, it could be fatal.

However, the make or break issue comes down to one thing, the cats. Kelly is terrified of Keira, who has beaten her once and Keira makes sure Kelly knows that she's lower in the pack order. This is fine with me. Keira is adapting to Kelly, and is getting calmer and less aggressive toward her, even being able to be within arms reach of her without freaking out.

But Lily is much more timid and is nervous around Kelly, which Kelly recognizes and lunges at Lily, wanting to chase her. She's not barking at Lily anymore because we've growled at her every time, but she still lunges and is scaring poor Lily senseless. Which is really sad, as Lily was at first fascinated and friendly, and only got nervous because Kelly barked and chased her.

I keep reminding myself it's only been a week, but if we can't get Kelly to accept Lily or leave her alone, then Kelly will have to go. I'm missing having Lily snuggle on the bed at night because she spends all her time hiding now.

We'll give it one more week, and hopefully will see improvement.

current mood: depressed

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Sunday, August 15th, 2010
5:07 pm - Welcome to the family Kelly dog!
I haven't given up on getting a Newfoundland, but it won't be for a while. Not at $2,500 a pup any way.

So today Glissom and I went to the RSPCA, just to see if there was anyone there that would suit us. Amusingly, Glissom and I were attracted to almost exactly opposite types of dog, and have decided to adopt a little, very little in fact, staffie.

So, meet Kelly!

She's 7 years old, weighs 11.5kg, loves cuddles, did not freak out about being picked up and flipped around, and seemed to really enjoy being in the car. I think she's a bit skinny, and am going to aim to bring her weight up to around 15kgs.

She was at the RSPCA for three months, having been surrendered to the SPCA when her former owner died. The handler at the RSPCA started the introduction speech to us by stressing how much stuff we stood to lose to destruction. I laughed and started telling her stories about Lu Dog, listing some of the things I lost over the years.

The handler was very happy to see her go home with us.

Currently, Kelly is exploring, but keeps coming back to sit beside me as I have a jar of rice snacks and am randomly feeding her some. Ah bribery! My favourite dog training method.

current mood: happy

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Monday, August 9th, 2010
6:23 pm - No Fun, not at all.
My life is so thrilling at the moment. The high-light has been doing my taxes and discovering that I'm going to get a return this year, instead of a bill. Hurrah!

Been discussing with Glissom what to spend it on, and it looks like air-conditioning is the winner. Can't say I'm unhappy about that, not at all!

Mum and my sister-in-law both had surgery on the same day, mum to have a pin put in the shoulder she broke six months ago, and the sister-in-law to have a pin removed from the ankle she shattered six weeks ago. They have survived and hopefully now will both be much better.

Got to see Wicked with Glissom and it was absolutely wonderful. If you have the chance to see it, I really recommend it.

Didn't enjoy West Side Story so much. The production was wonderful, just elements of the story that I don't like.

Took Glissom and the parents-in-law to see the Sydney Symphony Orchestra, and we had seats right in front of my favourite instruments, the double bass.

Crowded House are doing a show in November and I have tickets for that too. Really looking forward to that.

Okay, maybe life is a bit more exciting than I was giving it credit for. I have a really nasty cold and get dizzy if I'm upright for very long, so I'm going to go impersonate a log for while.

current mood: sick

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Sunday, July 25th, 2010
1:50 pm - Writer's Block: Supersize me
Have you ever boycotted a company or product? If so, what was it, and what caused you to boycott it?

The company I boycotted was Gloria Jeans, and I have never bothered to go back. I admit that they do fantastic iced chocolate, and the coffee is pretty good. However, in Australia, the owners used Gloria Jeans to raise money to support Hillsong Church and a fake charity called Mercy Ministries.

Mercy Ministries claimed to be a pregnancy help line aiming to give pregnant woman access to information and counseling. Unfortunately, they were a front for a religious "Pro-Life" movement.

Woman calling the help line number were given false information including such gems as having an abortion would make them sterile or give them breast cancer, and were told they were murderers and evil selfish people for considering having an abortion.

Less than a year ago, the directors were found guilty by the ACCC of having engaged in false and mis-leading conduct, and ordered to pay restitution to their victims, a total of 110 women. Gloria Jeans has severed ties to Mercy Ministries now, however the directors have not changed, they still have ties to Hillsong Church, and the directors are currently engaged in a legal battle over $56 million dollars in unpaid commissions.

Because of the appalling attitudes of the directors, because Hillsong is evil, because of the vitriol and lies they tell, I boycott Gloria Jeans Australia.

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Thursday, May 27th, 2010
12:00 pm - I take it back!
Just got a call about the job I interviewed for on Monday.

Training starts on the 7th of June!


current mood: shocked

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